A kind of fighting
The other day, one of my dear friends pinned this Shakespeare quote and it really stuck with me. Being something of a Shakespeare geek, I've probably read Hamlet 25 times at least, and I immediately recognized the quote - I just hadn't thought about it in a long, long time. And the more I thought about it, the more it reminded me of Ethan. The quote is from the final scene of the play, and Hamlet says:
Sir, in my heart there was a kind of fighting,
That would not let me sleep: methought I lay
Worse than the mutines in the bilboes. Rashly,
And prais'd be rashness for it, let us know,
Our indescretion sometime serves us well
When our deep plots do pall, and that should learn us
There's a divinity that shapes our ends,
Rough-hew them how we will. (V.ii.4-11).
At this point in the play, Hamlet has realized that all lives are controlled by a certain destiny, and that he can't escape the paradox of his situation, that he will avenge death with death. It reminded me so much of Ethan, whose aim throughout my book is to help Kate live more authentically and chase her heart's desire. But in the process of helping her, he realizes that he really has the exact same hurdle to jump in his own life. "There's a divinity that shapes our ends / Rough-hew them how we will." You can't escape your destiny, and the best-laid plans will be interrupted by the necessary actions we take.