With Ethan, it's always been all about the music - a specific sound that reminded me of a certain someone, a particular mood that embodied everything I felt when I was with him, the things he added to the world, the soundtrack that accompanied my life when he was in it. Whenever I start to lose him, all I really need to get him back (aside from courage) is a playlist.
I took a break from Lullaby to start working on something else and give myself a break, but in all honesty, it was also because I was afraid of the next steps. I'm confident that I'm a great writer. I'm not confident that I'll get a book published. But I'm also not one to go down without a fight. I punked myself, but I'm calling myself on it - enough is enough.
To rev myself up to start up again, I've turned to Spotify (aka the greatest music streaming option of all time), where I have two playlists related to Lullaby. The first is an imagined soundtrack to the book, and the second is a list of songs that connect me back to the time in my life that inspired the story or feels like a continuation of those days. Wanna listen?
Bjork, The Cure, Tori Amos, Pearl Jam, Nine Inch Nails, Stone Temple Pilots, Ani DiFranco, Sarah McLachlan, Radiohead, Smashing Pumpkins, Fiona Apple, The White Stripes, The Black Keys, Depeche Mode, Dave Matthews, Portishead, Massive Attack.
The Cure, The Smiths, The Dead Kennedys, Rancid, Fiona Apple, Bjork, Nine Inch Nails, Frank Sinatra, Miles Davis, The Sex Pistols, The Pixies, The Clash, Cream, Bob Marley, Bauhaus, Leonard Cohen, Lauryn Hill.
Enjoy the ride.